BreastCancer Maybe or BreastCancer Not.....

I may have breast cancer which sucks. I think the thing that bugs me most is not the actual possibility of having breast cancer but the possibility of not breast feeding a future little Alvarez, well if I ever get pregnant. TTC for me has been sucking. Hearing that people I know getting pregnant so easily sucks. I am happy for them but this takes a toll on me emotionally. Two couples who got married after my hubby and I are pregnant. I am so happy for them but it just reminds me of my broken women issues. I used to think for sure that I would be a mother, now I am not so sure. I will be truly shocked if it ever happens.